so im thinking about tweeting. only cuz my homie said it would help me put my blog out there and i would get more readers. idk. do i want hella heads knowing about my blog and what i pour into it? we'll see.
anyways i uploaded hella pics, didnt really do hw, and realized how fucked up things have been. i read an old friend's blog and idk. i got so depressed cuz it was about me. i knew it was about me. these entries were seriously eating at my heart because idk. i wonder if this person is reading this.....if you are.....then thats weird cuz i feel like im talking to you..but not really..im talking to myself now. but anyways, if i could say somethings to you itd be in person..in the meantime...id like to say it hurts knowing that i am merely a memory, a bad memory at that. i want to say i miss you but yeah i cant cuz we're on bad terms and that just wouldnt work out. i miss talking to you and laughing and the sleepovers and the junk food stops and what not. maybe its not you that i miss. maybe i dont know. i think that was just the time in my life where everything was all good. now my life isnt so great. im not gonna lie. i know this is selfish but i hope you feel an slight emptiness in your heart where i used to be. i hope you think about me and wonder what im doing. i hope one day [soon] youll surprise me and ask to get dinner or something. idk. wishful thinking sucks. anyways...i thought about you for a while. i hope youve done the same.
lately nothing has been perfect. the whole court situation and the problems. personal problems too. i sometimes wonder what it would be like to be alone for the rest of my life. so many people go through their lives without having loved or been loved. maybe im living the luxurious life and i just dont know it. idk. lately i've been sitting around thinking what someone leaves me? what if they want someone else but theyre just in denial? what if theyre cheating on me? how would i know? or even if i did know, what would i do? idk. i've done my share of hurting other people..but idk how it would feel to be completely left for someone else. i dont want to know...i wish i could take a peek at my future and see who i will be and where i will be...i wonder if id have a wife. kids. a job. a home. i wonder if id still be as miserable as i am today. maybe i'll be happy. idk. i wish i could know.
TRUE FRIENDS:
+Tiffany Nguyen
+.................
you know youre a bad person when your only true friend is your girlfriend. i seriously cant think of anyone else. makes me wonder if anyone would miss me if i died today.
hopefully i'd be remembered as this person; happy. maybe as someone that made contributions to peoples' lives. in a positive way of course.
anyways i uploaded hella pics, didnt really do hw, and realized how fucked up things have been. i read an old friend's blog and idk. i got so depressed cuz it was about me. i knew it was about me. these entries were seriously eating at my heart because idk. i wonder if this person is reading this.....if you are.....then thats weird cuz i feel like im talking to you..but not really..im talking to myself now. but anyways, if i could say somethings to you itd be in person..in the meantime...id like to say it hurts knowing that i am merely a memory, a bad memory at that. i want to say i miss you but yeah i cant cuz we're on bad terms and that just wouldnt work out. i miss talking to you and laughing and the sleepovers and the junk food stops and what not. maybe its not you that i miss. maybe i dont know. i think that was just the time in my life where everything was all good. now my life isnt so great. im not gonna lie. i know this is selfish but i hope you feel an slight emptiness in your heart where i used to be. i hope you think about me and wonder what im doing. i hope one day [soon] youll surprise me and ask to get dinner or something. idk. wishful thinking sucks. anyways...i thought about you for a while. i hope youve done the same.
lately nothing has been perfect. the whole court situation and the problems. personal problems too. i sometimes wonder what it would be like to be alone for the rest of my life. so many people go through their lives without having loved or been loved. maybe im living the luxurious life and i just dont know it. idk. lately i've been sitting around thinking what someone leaves me? what if they want someone else but theyre just in denial? what if theyre cheating on me? how would i know? or even if i did know, what would i do? idk. i've done my share of hurting other people..but idk how it would feel to be completely left for someone else. i dont want to know...i wish i could take a peek at my future and see who i will be and where i will be...i wonder if id have a wife. kids. a job. a home. i wonder if id still be as miserable as i am today. maybe i'll be happy. idk. i wish i could know.
TRUE FRIENDS:
+Tiffany Nguyen
+.................
you know youre a bad person when your only true friend is your girlfriend. i seriously cant think of anyone else. makes me wonder if anyone would miss me if i died today.
hopefully i'd be remembered as this person; happy. maybe as someone that made contributions to peoples' lives. in a positive way of course.
