i texted someone tonight about what was going on....i told them the basics of how i was trying to do my hw while listening to music and i started thinking..eventually starting to cry.
have you ever experienced that feeling of sadness where all your senses are hightened and you pay attention to every detail of every object or aspect in your life? this is what i experienced tonight. what hit me so hard is that, for the past couple weeks, i have been slowly losing someone so special to me. by this i mean so special to the point where i can think about how good they are to me and feel all weird inside. other times i can think of this person and get a warm happy feeling. i really dont know what is wrong with me. call me soft or feminine or whatever but i couldnt really care less. if i love someone, i have absolutely no problem with showing it.
but there is where my problem lays. sometimes its hard for me to show it but people should know how much they mean to me. this specific person is my everything. this person....like its so hard to explain. there is no way possible in order to measure to what extent that this person cares for me and loves me for who i really am. i mean this literally. this person doesnt even have to try. thats how amazing of a person they are. age is no factor that should be considered in this aspect of life for me. i dont care how old this person is. im not going to lie. if i ever had a hero, this person is my frickin flash. the love that this person shows is so great that it just gets to me. why? it gets to me because i feel as though i have let this person down because i simply dont know how to return the same amount of love.
i cry because i love this person so much--->but i feel i dont offer the same love that they deserve
i cry because i truly believe i am not good enough for them--->and i know they are settling for a lesser person in their life
by now this person should know who they are. if youre reading this, i'd just like to let you know that nobody could ever take your spot in my life. nobody will ever feel the love that i have for you and only you. i love you with all my heart. i miss you so much. i'd also like to thank you for everything. i'd like to thank you for loving me more than any family member of mine could ever love me. i'd like to thank you for sharing happiness and laughter with me. i'd like to thank you simply for being in my life at all. i know we've had this conversation before but yeah i still think that i dont deserve to have everything that you have to offer.
maybe its just me but i dont know how to show you how much you really mean to me. you mean to me like...i dont even know. like....if the sun didnt exist, YOU would be my sun. i dont know. that was a bit corny but whatever you make me laugh when you make fun of me about stuff like that.
what im wishing to get out of this is you realizing what you have given me in life. without you i couldnt say that i've experienced everything that there is to be experienced in life. thats like going through life without being able to say that youve inhaled air. it really is very hard to explain what you mean to me. you were always better at using words than i ever was. so you should know wsup. cuz youre the most intelligent person i know. youre the most humorous individual i know. you are the most caring ever.
on "the real", you are the best there is out there. one day i will truly deserve you. i will take care of you for the rest of my life. if you need something, i'll be there for you no matter what. i will be there if you need to call on someone for help. i will be your hero just as you have been for me. i promise you this.
Thank You For The Chills That You Are Still, To This Day, Able To Give Me.
i miss you so much. i feel heartbroken just being away from you.
i am incomplete without you.
i love you always and forever.
have you ever experienced that feeling of sadness where all your senses are hightened and you pay attention to every detail of every object or aspect in your life? this is what i experienced tonight. what hit me so hard is that, for the past couple weeks, i have been slowly losing someone so special to me. by this i mean so special to the point where i can think about how good they are to me and feel all weird inside. other times i can think of this person and get a warm happy feeling. i really dont know what is wrong with me. call me soft or feminine or whatever but i couldnt really care less. if i love someone, i have absolutely no problem with showing it.
but there is where my problem lays. sometimes its hard for me to show it but people should know how much they mean to me. this specific person is my everything. this person....like its so hard to explain. there is no way possible in order to measure to what extent that this person cares for me and loves me for who i really am. i mean this literally. this person doesnt even have to try. thats how amazing of a person they are. age is no factor that should be considered in this aspect of life for me. i dont care how old this person is. im not going to lie. if i ever had a hero, this person is my frickin flash. the love that this person shows is so great that it just gets to me. why? it gets to me because i feel as though i have let this person down because i simply dont know how to return the same amount of love.
i cry because i love this person so much--->but i feel i dont offer the same love that they deserve
i cry because i truly believe i am not good enough for them--->and i know they are settling for a lesser person in their life
by now this person should know who they are. if youre reading this, i'd just like to let you know that nobody could ever take your spot in my life. nobody will ever feel the love that i have for you and only you. i love you with all my heart. i miss you so much. i'd also like to thank you for everything. i'd like to thank you for loving me more than any family member of mine could ever love me. i'd like to thank you for sharing happiness and laughter with me. i'd like to thank you simply for being in my life at all. i know we've had this conversation before but yeah i still think that i dont deserve to have everything that you have to offer.
maybe its just me but i dont know how to show you how much you really mean to me. you mean to me like...i dont even know. like....if the sun didnt exist, YOU would be my sun. i dont know. that was a bit corny but whatever you make me laugh when you make fun of me about stuff like that.
what im wishing to get out of this is you realizing what you have given me in life. without you i couldnt say that i've experienced everything that there is to be experienced in life. thats like going through life without being able to say that youve inhaled air. it really is very hard to explain what you mean to me. you were always better at using words than i ever was. so you should know wsup. cuz youre the most intelligent person i know. youre the most humorous individual i know. you are the most caring ever.
on "the real", you are the best there is out there. one day i will truly deserve you. i will take care of you for the rest of my life. if you need something, i'll be there for you no matter what. i will be there if you need to call on someone for help. i will be your hero just as you have been for me. i promise you this.
Thank You For The Chills That You Are Still, To This Day, Able To Give Me.
i miss you so much. i feel heartbroken just being away from you.
i am incomplete without you.
i love you always and forever.